I got to thinking this past week.. funny huh?? A woman always thinking....... Ha! That God has me planted perfectly.. I was sitting in my vehicle yesterday having some lunch, dripping taco sauce on myself, just thinking and praying, and the wind started picking up. I watched the tree in front of me sway and bend from side to side, branches wavering in the wind, the tiny white blossoms taking flight and falling off the branches to wherever they were going.. It was beautiful. I thought about myself being more like that tree. And I cannot tell you how many times my blossoms have blown in millions of different directions, the old ones dying and leaving their branches, all the while new ones were taking shape and reaching for the sunshine.
My life is so much more content and peaceful than it has ever been in the past 10 years. And it just keeps getting better every day and every year, and by the Grace of God, only He knows when it is time to blossom, to make a new, and to let the old die, whither, and take flight. I find myself swaying in the wind more often than none, constantly being blown in all different directions, whether that is my family's needs, my child's needs, my husband's needs, my work's needs, but I still stand, I am still grounded, I still grow where He has me planted. I am made of strong wood- Jesus :) He lives and grows inside of me.
I say this because I know that my husband and I are going to face strong winds in the next couple years of our lives together, great changes and great challenges are coming, but the one thing I love about God is that He always knows how much I can handle, its like He's up there saying... "Oh that Lisa, yeah she'll be fine, I'm going to go ahead and bless her with this opportunity and see what she does for others"..
Let me say that if I hadn't been the type of girl who "went through just about everything" when she was younger, I might be going a little postal in these later years.... LOL!! But I am so thankful that I did what I did when I was younger, that I didn't do half the things my friends did when we were younger, that God somehow always managed to stay right by my side, even when I decided to push Him away- He never left. I am thankful that I experienced doubt, pain, loss, frustration, friendship betrayal, disappointment, lies, several broken hearts and I broke a few myself. I'm thankful I didn't get married too young, I didn't have kids too young and I'm thankful I didn't have kids too late. I was having coffee with a dear friend of mine the other morning and I remember us talking about how our lives have unfolded. I remember thinking to myself that I am glad I didn't wait until "later" to have children. A lot of people who wait sometimes find it harder to "mold" to a child's life, to give up their wants, their needs, their "play time".. I am thankful that I was never the girl who "had everything", who traveled a lot, or just did a lot. I don't know what that feels like so I have nothing that I "want for" or "miss" except to be a good mother and to raise my children in the light of an ugly world. I am bendable, I am willing to change, I am willing to even give up the tiny selfish parts of me so that my children can have a better life, so that I can truly love my husband and try to be the best wife possible. I am made to bend in the wind, to stand in the rain, to show my beauty even in the midst of a storm. If there is one thing God and my child have taught me, it is to be still, to be patient, to stand planted, to know that what might seem like forever now, is only a milisecond to the benefits later.
I do not have much scripture for my post today- just a thought of are you growing where you are planted or are your roots dead? Are you poisoning the ground around you or making fertile ground for someone else to grow?
"And don't be wishing you were someplace else or with someone else. Where you are right now is God's place for you. Live and obey and love and believe right there." 1 Corinthians 7:17All my love in Him
