Anywho- I like the fact that God humbles me enough that I can be honest with myself and about what I'm feeling, I am never ashamed or embarrassed to feel what I feel or to even know when I am "messing up"- I am kept under the umbrella of the DIVINE FORGIVER! :O)
Well, I have had to do some more Lisa searching and chatting it up with God these past couple of weeks because I have been a HOT MESS!! and who do I blame for that?! Oh of course everyone around me right?! Ha! Yeah, God let me get away with that for all of about five seconds. BAM!! Lisa, don't you know you are responsible for your own actions and feelings and if you don't like something- CHANGE IT!! I have just had a whirlwind of emotions flying around relating to my job, future opportunities, my own dreams I have been praying about, my family, my husband, my baby, my extended family, etc, etc, etc.... I mean who knew that Life could be difficult?! and what did God say about that?
33 I have told you all this so that you may have peace in me. Here on earth you will have many trials and sorrows. But take heart, because I have overcome the world.” ~ John 16:33
Ah ha!!! GOD HAS OVERCOME THE WORLD!!!! THE WORLD!!!! not just money, famine, disappointment, rude people..... THE WORLD!!!! God is the maker of all things, He created the stars in the Heavens- How could He even possibly forget about little ol me!! NEVER! :O)
So my friends, I came to this: What is LISA missing?! What does Lisa need that keeps her going everyday to continue to be a good worker, provider, mother, wife, GIVER!! I need God number one, but I also need the word!! It is like fresh air, water, I need it everyday and I need GOOD PEOPLE for both me and my husband to surround ourselves with, who not only lift us up individually, but we need to be lifted up in our marriage AT ALL TIMES!! I had to do some SERIOUS "friend" chopping and just eliminating those people out of my life who just don't "uplift me." and it doesn't make them bad people, it just means that where they are going and what they do are not what I want or need for myself or my family. It is okay people for you to say no to someone or to not hang around someone when you feel like they could be a hindrance to your spiritual relationship and walk with God and I have to remind myself- if they don't like me for it, well, that is okay, I wasn't put on this Earth to be like by many :)
I have decided that there will be no more "weeping" feeling sorry for myself when things don't go my way, no more "complaining" and "always being tired"... Did you know the very words you speak out of your mouth can bring life or bring death?! I'll never forget a lady I used to work with when I lived in Dothan would always tell me to watch what I repeat because it will come true..... You will speak it in to action... You ever hear people say ALL THE TIME "oh I'm sooo tired, I'm tired... I'm sooo tired.. my neck hurts, my back hurts and so on... " and literally they ARE TIRED!!!! Hello- that's me!!
Proverbs says "Death and Life are in the power of the tongue; and they that love it shall eat the fruit thereof." Proverbs 18:21
Change is hard because it starts with you, you can't change anyone around you to "accomodate the way you are feeling"- you have to be the change. Get up, MOVE, DIVE IN!!! Chase after your dreams, don't just stand there and wait for them to come to you "because you deserve it"- GO, NOW!! RUN, GET THEM!!!!
I AM!!!! I am the change I want to see in and around my family and my life, and I am not stopping... FOR ANYONE!! :O)
"The harvest is PLENTIFUL; but the WORKERS ARE FEW" ~ Matt 9:37
All my love, in Him <3
